Yes+

Talon and I decided we wanted to try to get pregnant in November of 2015. It was so exciting and so hard to keep a secret. I seriously thought I was pregnant in December but it was just wishful thinking. Same thing in January. I would get sad about it because I know that journey is different for every couple and since it was our first time I didn't know how long it would take us to get pregnant.

At the beginning of February we were babysitting for a good friend and they seriously have the most precious, little babe and I remember just crying and crying while we were watching him because I wanted to have my own little baby so badly. Little did I know that I was actually pregnant!

So we found out I was pregnant on February 16th. I was in the middle of a super intense semester at BYU and that day in particular I remember being very busy. I had so much to do at school and then right after I had to race to the temple for an endowment session for a good friend of ours. I also wasn't feeling the greatest but chalked it up to my usual monthly symptoms, even though at that point I was a week late. I didn't let myself think much on it because I figured it was just stress and I didn't want to be disappointed again.

The temple session was so special. While we were waiting to start the session I was sitting there and all of a sudden this feeling came over me that I was pregnant. But again I pushed it to the back of my mind because I didn't want to get my hopes up. After the temple Talon met all of us for dinner at Olive Garden. I love Olive Garden, especially their bread sticks, but this time when I took a bite of a bread stick it was the most disgusting thing I had ever tasted in my entire life. This furthered my suspicion but I was still so scared about it. I hadn't said anything to Talon up to this point but my heart started racing and I turned to him and said, "I think I'm pregnant. Like for real this time, it feels different, but I'm scared." The rest of the night was Talon and I whispering back and forth about it while we were supposed to be conversing with everyone else.

Dinner ended late, like after nine. I kept going back and forth between wanting to take a pregnancy test and being too afraid to. I didn't want to take a test and have it tell me I wasn't pregnant. But Talon finally convinced me to take one so we drove straight to Walgreens to pick one up. We got home around 10 and then I couldn't decide if I wanted to wait until the morning to take it. Haha, I'm so indecisive! Then like a woman possessed I just ripped open the box and went into the bathroom. My heart was beating so fast. We bought a package that had two tests in it, a normal one and a digital one. I wanted to be sure. I was praying the whole time and was SO nervous I was just shaking. I took the normal test first and as I was setting it down on the counter I noticed there was already a VERY visible second pink line. My heart lept but I put it down and didn't look at it again until the few minutes was up. I was convinced it would change. Then I took the digital test and set it down. Those were the longest three minutes of my life!

After the time was up I took a deep breath and looked at the tests. I couldn't believe it! A pink line and a "Yes+"!!!!!!!!!!!! I just started crying and praying telling God "thank you" over and over again. That was a special moment between my Heavenly Father and I. I collected myself (not really) and ran out of the bathroom and just looked at Talon with my hands over my mouth, crying, and shaking my head yes. Talon just gave me a hug and said, "yep, I had a feeling."

We calculated that I was about five weeks and just couldn't stop smiling or hugging each other. It was a special moment the two of us were able to share and honestly finding out I was pregnant was literally the WEIRDEST experience of my entire life. It was so surreal. Motherhood was something I had been preparing for my entire life but it was always a someday thing, something that was in the future and I here I was at 23 taking the first step to becoming a mom!

I didn't sleep a wink that night.